Wednesday, May 28, 2008

* syahidah fainted *

she exhausted.
probably would come back to life during the weekends or in 2 weeks time.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

* It make me happy :D *

I went Tjc this morning with Sianru, Andrew, Jo, Debo, Clemont, Haoyi and Enci to see Muyao's exhibition. The photos were WONDERFUL! We bought like $72 worth of prints, at discounted price x) Loved the fact that i got to see muyao again! Though it felt that the distance grew abit but he was as comfortable as always :)

I talked to Debra over the phone just now and it make me realise how much i really missed them especially when i heard their voices over the phone, or hear stuff about them. Im thinking how delighted i would be when the day where i meet adlin comes. I will SO POUNCE ON HER!

It makes me happy to talk to my friends.

It also makes me HAPPY to hear that dbsk is coming out with a new single!

どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
"Why have I fallen in love with you?"

I just listen to the preview and I LOVE IT! hehehe!
Can't wait for it to come out!

Friday, May 23, 2008

* She was..... *

Hello.
Syahidah is back and dying because she was redoing her final compo and she decided to stop for a while to write about her day.

She went to school early with intentions to study and help tiak trace her compo but she ended talking to everyone and did the minimum studying.

She went into the examination hall and did her paper with careful planning this time and she hopes that she did well enough not to fail in her overall gp grade. Her palms were sweating the whole time and she kept wiping her hand on the table. She likes to stare at the whole examination hall because she was sitting RIGHT at the back and in the corner.
However towards the end of the exam, SHE WAS FREAKED out by the workers who came to take the things outside the ispace away. They kept looking inside!!!!

After GP was done, she was hopping around! And pulling Jo around to see people... (HEHEHE!)
She decided to get some pao from 7-11 to eat first before helping Tiak trace her canvas! Jo left her halfway with Sianru and Andrew to get some Tau hyui? YYeahhhhhhh........
She saw people playing soccer and basketball.

She went back to art room and help tiak! They completed the tracing in an hour! Elvis was there too and he kept singing. Syahidah thought that he could sing very nicely. x) She went home because it was too late.

She boarded a unique bus which has music blasting and funky seats but Syahidah wasn't impressed as she could see that it was a bloody waste of space. And it was uncomfortable to sleep. She was on the bus for a freaking hour and a half. She walks home from the bus stop listening to nice music.

She's now excited beacuse she is going to see her good friend Muyao who is having an exhibition tmr!

She happy! And she's off to read some fanfictions about Changmin!
GOODBYE!

* It's GP today! *

HELLO.
It's the morning of our GP exam and im using the com! haha! i feel so ... unsure.
To think that your writing standard during the Olvls was worth the grade and that it would be suffiecient to do well in A lvls, HOW WRONG.

I can't use bombastic words like epitome or vexacious because i don't use them in everyday conversation and it's DIFFICULT to write like that..
BLAH.

Im going to do some reading before i go to school later.
Gonna help tiak to do some tracing first before i do mine.

Good luck everyone!

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

* a sudden burst of energy *

Hello. My Gp exams are in 3 days time. I shall be vexacious and write my post in an objective manner. It may sound annoying to you but bear with it. Im PRACTISING.

unfortunately, i didn't survive after that paragraph. so im back to writing crap.

Weird things happened today.
Couldn't pay full attention to econs tutorial because i was too sleepy.
Heard conversations that i don't want to hear.
SOMEONE CALLED MY NAME! x)
ying ying drew me a cute drawing! Of monkeys and sheeps and an extra-ded soccer ball.
Went art room and painted Van Gogh style though it was so not fitting with the image that i wanted to bring across.
Went for Leaders Invest, WHICH was quite boring coz you can see my WHOLE class sleeping.
though there was this cute counciller from SA who came.
Went to art room to paint but QianYing invited me to lunch WHICH i wanted to backout halfway but she made me buy food first before leaving to sit with her class.
Went to art room to FINALLY PAINT.
Painted until damn letargic.
OH OH.
We were talking most of the time while painting. very random topics. x)
And we got even more letargic when miss hew didn't annouce our break at 4.30.
Sianru was dying!
Den the countdown to 5.30 started. x)
5.30 and HOMEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!


yup yup
Now im procrastinating coz i still don't want to do my work. x)

Sunday, May 18, 2008

* me feels like exploring. *

I had exams today. Religious class ones, and i was LATE coz i forgot what time it started which was at 9. And i arrived at 9.15am. haha! whatever lah.

Went to buy my oil paints today. they cost a BOMB. i think i could have saved at least $25 if i bought the paints before they increased the prices. *sighs* In total i spend $172 inclusive of a 10% discount. Im so sorry papa, for giving you the big shock.

I was drawing my composition out when i realised that there were still many holes. *sighs* Holes as in many things still missing. I wanna change erpei to an old man. Hmmm. where do i get an old man? i have no freaking idea.

Attempted to look around for an old man online, but i went to muyao's blog and found this! HANDWRITING ANALYSIS!

muyao's was funny! i shall go read andrew's later. But HERE'S MINE!



Nur Syahidah uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

i do like my alone time ok! especially at home.

The circumstances when Nur Syahidah does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

haha! this is so freaking true! Don't get me mad coz i'll remember!

Nur Syahidah will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

No words needed see?

Nur Syahidah is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Nur Syahidah doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Of course i see what's best for me!

Nur Syahidah will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Well you DID asked for it...

In reference to Nur Syahidah's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Nur Syahidah slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Nur Syahidah can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

I think my mind is weird???

Nur Syahidah is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Nur Syahidah basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

yes i love myself./

Nur Syahidah is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Stanley should know this very well.

Nur Syahidah is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

HMM...........

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Nur Syahidah has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Nur Syahidah fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Nur Syahidah has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Nur Syahidah just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Nur Syahidah finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.

I think this part is so screwed. I DON'T HELP MYSELF to a drink in other people's refrigerator!

that's all i guess. I shall now go continue to find for that old man.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

* writing style *

hello blog.

I got back my gp essay the other day and i didn't do well on it. miss chiew was saying that i ramble too much. Too long winded. The source of my rambling writing habit;

YOU.

though im not gonna change the way im gonna write here. haha! don't worry. I'll still be rambling here.

ok.
rambling starts here =>

i just finished writing aini's email, though i prefer to call it a letter. i MISS HER. MUCH!
i miss everyone else too but you know, you just miss her more coz she's away in canada.

I slept the whole day.
yup yup.

Anger called me just now. Asking me if i wanted to go to scgs campfire tonight because the sec 3s are performing. She was talking den halfway through she was like "OH btw do you know who this is?" ahaha? Anger dear, of course i recognise your voice from the moment i picked up the phone.

my detailed line drawing is extremly detailed
haha! im off to finsih it now x)

Thursday, May 15, 2008

* painting fit. *

i felt excited to paint today.
Was happily painting until my brother came over and he said it wasn't nice.
Since my brother studies art too i tend to take his opinions more seriously than the rest of my family members.

he said the shirt i've been painting wasn't NICE.
YOU SUCKER!!!!!!!
i lost my enthusiasm to finish the painting. (threw it aside)


my painting frenzy has been spoilt.
and im now watching The Contender on Channel 5
Muay Thai suddenly looks damn interesting.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

* the days just passes by... *

Im getting more tired as each day passes,

my eyebags keep growing darker each day,
my enthusiasium lost along the way
my body exhausted at the end of the day
my mouth closed with words i don't say.

but i guess the only thing that keeps me going on
it the great company that i have.
and my urge to see them again the next day,
everyday.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

* of maths and laughter and pain. *

HELLO.
IM HOME EARLY TODAY!
because there was no MOTHER TONGUE!!!! see how happy i am?
haha! YEAYNESS!!!!

Im kinda preparing my costume for tmr!
Im going as sherlock homes! YEAY.
i just need the pipe and a magnifying glass! AND YUPPSSS.

there's econs test tmr. BAHH...
there's ERMMM....
so many things! haha!

Maths test is sucky. FULLSTOP.

i made rachel's day! i tell you how, I was complaining to Rachel that i was ending late today but i would be able to go home super early tmr! The moment i finish my sentence, i missed the step and fell! HAHAH!!! i was laughing and in pain at the same time. i sprain my ankle again. I should have opened my eyes coz then i would see rachel laughing her head off!!! The others didn;t really hear our conversation so they didn't understand why rachel was laughing so hard.
OMO. it was funny!

ok i shall go prepare econs now!
BYE

Monday, May 05, 2008

* i hate being late. *

It totally spoils your mood for the whole day. i was late for my 2.4 km run today coz i woke up late. BLAH.
I felt like shit the whole day. Though there were some exceptional periods such as talking to shangyu during maths. Extremely fun. yeah.

We got back our first draft for GPP. It was feasible it's just that we needed to explore deeper.
Mr Toh saw Debo's small Sketchbook, The blue's clues series. We showed him yixiang's clues, he instantly said YIXIANG! haha! the disco ball and soccer ball damn obvious lah! Oh and he thought that Li Peng was a GUY. WAKAKA! Lucky he never see the next page.

During PE, i had to run my 2.4km and my lovely class offered to pace with me. x) yeayness! i have such a nice class! Thank you for today! x)

i went home listening to corrinne may. I was at peace.

i was practicing something an as i came down, i sprained my knee.
i will be limping tmr. GAKK.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

* stories galore. *

I am a sucker for stories.
I like to read, listen, watch about the stories.
I have a wild imagination.
I travel in that imagination of mine.
I see the whole story being played out infront of me.
I love the feeling.
your own personal theater running in your mind.

That's how i see things, i guess.
That's why i like stories, and EVERYTHING that has got to do with it.
Pictures are wonderful too.

however, i love it too much to be torn away from it.
i love it too much that i can't divide my time properly.
i love it too much that i don't do my homework.

i am a PROCRASTINATOR.
my current status indicates that im a dying procastinator.
Why?
Because my homework is not done, and my drawing is not drawn and

procrastinators don't survive.
they die.
it may not be physically but they die anyway.
just waiting for the time to come.

stories are my favourite past time.
regardless the form that they take.
i love it.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

* Of Gandhi and Buses. *

im not suppose to be here because im suppose to be freaking out ab0ut my composition and my geog test tmr.

There is alot to study and art stuff to do but Syahidah has officially fallen apart. THUS she's here. and rambling.

Went over to Deborah's house today at Woodlands. Guess what. it felt FOREIGN. It was my first time taking 969 to woodlands and i didn't know where to stop so i was in a panic. Pass by Yishun and i must say, Yishun definitely has a lot of Old people? The whole bus was full of elderly when the stop was at Yishun. Ok. Erm. The Mrt station too. Very foreign. I was suppose to meet Stanley at the control station but he so extra went to the bus stop first. I saw him from across the road. HAiz. So i waited for liling. Im glad that there was someone who has the same feeling as me. The feeling of being in a new place. Very weird but ya.

I made a big fuss this morning about taking the camera because i needed it to take photos on the bus. i Asked stanley and liling to help me pose and so we went on the bus. I went to the middle and guess what! The camera screen says, NO CARD. DAMN EMBARESSING.

OH SHIT.
i want to tell you more about my day but i just received an sms from miss hew. DAMN IT
I DIE.
im off to draw now

im so sorry mr ng. AEP comes first now.
i promise to do better next time