Saturday, June 07, 2008

* It's over? not really. *

Yesterday was supposed to be the last day that we would be painting for the june holidays.
But we have an important lecture on tuesday so that day shall be the last day. Wait. How can it be the last day when im only completed on 70% of my painting? Im doomed.

Painting was fun. I feel like i can spend hours doing something up to perfection but there just isn't enough time. 2 WEEKS? yeah it was fun but not when you are extremly unsure of what you are doing. Sometimes you just feel like squeezing out all the paint and throw them onto the canvas. TA-DA! DONE.
Expressionism Abstract. Can pass off?? Definetely NOT.

I wanted to upload my pictures so that i can scrutinise my painting longer and figure out what needs to be done, but i can't find my camera.

My sisters, grandma and maid went off to Perak yesterday night. I was suppose to send them off at the mosque but i fell asleep. I woke up at 11 and no one was at home. So i went back to sleep.
I woke up again at 4.30 feeling super damn weird. I looked around. Oh yeah, they're gone. This is the first time that im sleeping alone in my room in such a long time. Since i was 5? No wonder i felt damn weird.

And i suddenly didn't want to sleep there any longer.

*sighs*

Recently during the painting period, we had to go home very late, roughly around 6.30pm? yeah. I suddenly miss Debra terribly, all over again. I hate going home alone on the bus. Somtimes Qianying would go home with me but that only twice. *sighs* It's like after a long day in school and you are mentally drained, you just wanna have someone to talk to, so that the journey on the bus doesn't feel so annoying.

For some reason, painting in nanyang doesn't feel as bad compared to painting in cedar. Painting in cedar annoys the hell out of me but i got my A1 so im gonna close one eye to that. I think it's because the people around me are also painting. Maybe that's why I don't really feel that much insecurity as compared to cedar.

im off to read some nice fanfics about changmin before going to the ZOO today x)